Now or Never -a poem

They say His timing is perfect,

Now, as it was long ago,

While two parts of me say that is certain,

One part of me says I don’t know

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When my eyes were bright and expecting,

And doubt just barely in view,

I knew His timing was perfect,

Maybe this time my dream would come true

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But my heart grew more fitful and restless

From that dream, I started to wake,

Now I’m filled with so many questions,

And a fear getting harder to shake

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An old calendar…

A new journal…

The same feelings…

The same circle…

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But they said His timing is perfect!

Not that I need to agree

That one day it will just happen,

A day I might just not see

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Give thanks and be joyful this season,

This season’s gone on long enough,

Don’t worry, trust, and be patient,

I’m about to call all your bluffs

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Though yes, it could be soon,

And true, it might be clever,

My biggest fear of all…

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What if His timing means never?