Not Worth the Sting

Not Worth the Sting

Who am I to you, O Lord?

I am but algae that covers the deepest part of the ocean.

A barnacle that clings to the earth like a ship.

I am the dust that dirties the earth,

Yet you choose to rub your face in it.

 

I am not worth the sting

Of the kiss from a lying friend.

I am not worth the pain

Of claws stripping through your skin.

I am not worth the spit dripping down your face,

Or the blood gushing from your side.

 

Why? Why don’t you get up?

Why don’t you rise on the wings of your angels?

I am not worth the trembling of your screams

As you cry out “My God!”—

 

My God! You have delivered me,

You have brought light to my shadowed face,

You have pierced my lying tongue,

And sprinkled love over my perverted heart.

 

I promise to bathe in your crimson glory,

And step out in the path before me,

For I was worth it in your story,

And you are worth it in mine.

 

 

Blessing to you

-LJM

Matthew 20:28

Copyright © 2018 Leah Jordan Meahl. All Rights Reserved.

 

Make the Most of Your Life

Make the Most of Your Life

Make the most of your life,

Though our lives intertwined,

Make me just a memory

 

From the moment you wake,

And in your eyes sunlight shines,

Make the most of your life

 

With Truth in the shadows,

Hearts crossed the line,

Make me just a memory

 

When I felt lost in the mess,

I heard a Word divine,

Make the most of your life

 

You must let me go,

For you are not mine,

Make me just a memory

 

May peace find our souls,

And to Him our ears incline.

Make the most of your life,

Make me just a memory

 

 

-LJM

Psalm 16:11, Galations 5:16

Surviving “Singles Awareness Day”

Surviving “Singles Awareness Day”

Singles Awareness Day, more commonly known as Valentines Day, is all about making you feel crazy sorry for yourself.

I mean it’s about love—celebrating love.

If you’re in a relationship, congratulations! I hope you and your other half make the day special, saturated in rosy romance. But for me and my single pringles out there, it’s a reminder of the fact that we don’t have that special someone to shower us in love, attention, and gifts.

*Shout out to the friends and family for their efforts to make this day sweet for us!*

Leading up to this day, we single folk like to collect the fixings for a Happy Valentines Day without the main ingredient: a significant other. Our recipe includes chocolate, rom-coms, wine, etc, and we give it all to ourselves to make us feel a little bit more special. Why? Because the world says we need to feel a little more loved on this day.

Even though I might be among you curled up on the couch watching a romantic comedy with a chocolate heart in hand, I want to give you a few reminders for this day.

You are beautiful. (Ecclesiastes 3:11)

You are loved. (Zephaniah 3:17)

You already have the hero who gave up His life for you. (Romans 5:8)

You have the deepest love letter in your possession. (John 15:10)

You have a love who is not stingy with gifts. (James 1:17)

Be thankful for your singleness. Be thankful for your significant other. Both can be such a blessing in your life, and it would be a shame to waste a blessing because of the warped perspective we have about love.

I invite you to join me in reflecting on our first love; how beautiful and pure we look in His eyes, and how we live to show the world our love for Him.

So, if you’re like me and have a twinge of self-pity rise within you on Valentines Day, remember a greater love surrounds you that is deeper and wider than any love a human can give.

God bless you lovelies!

-LJM

I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you.

∼Jeremiah 31:3∼

Unquenched

Unquenched

Love is

Drinking water from the mouth of Hades.

A liquid flaming gold,

Scooped from the river of fire itself.

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The lava leaves burning scars on my lips,

My soul is but melted rock,

Indistinguishable.

My insides boil,

Bubbling red until

The heat, no longer contained

Erupts.

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Molten tears race down my skin,

It’s Pompeii come to devastate again.

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And when the tears cool,

And the glow hardens to rock,

A blanket of ash lays me down to sleep.

For awhile, all is calm,

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Until I thirst again…

Dear Special Guy…

Dear Special Guy…

Dear Special Guy,

Congratulations, you have caught my attention. I guess that’s not really difficult to do, but here we are. From the moment you smiled during our first conversation, I knew I wanted to be good friends with you and hopeful something more down the line. Well, we’re down the line now, and I’ve come to realize that you probably don’t feel the same way.

That’s okay, Guy, it’s not your fault. But I thought I’d get some things off my chest anyway.

First of all, you are amazing. Your kind heart shines about as much as your smile when you walk into a room. Your talent drops my jaw, your words make me laugh, and your presence brings warmth to my cheeks. I’m giddy when we get to spend time together or when I see your name pop up on my phone.

Guy, if you’ll let me be honest, I’ve thought about what my life would look like with you. I hope that’s not creepy, but I’m sorry, it’s what we girls do. It’s so easy for us to get attached to a relationship that doesn’t even exist. Which is what brings me to the point of this letter.

You see, Guy, you have become an idol in my life. That’s another thing we humans tend to let happen. A flower bloomed in the soil of my affection. It’s pretty and lovely, but it’s not healthy. Don’t worry, it’s not because of anything you did. My thoughts watered it and helped it grow. Now that I know you’ll probably never reciprocate, I’m having a tough time letting that flower die.

But that flower is just another reminder of what special guys like you do for me. You remind me of my need for an earthly love. You give me the possibility that one day I can have a future with a man by my side. You instill in me hope that there are good guys out there who can provide me with a friend, a spiritual leader, and one day a husband. It may not be with you, but it just means that we weren’t meant to be together.

Through this mess of feelings, you’ve taught me that love shouldn’t try to force two pieces together that don’t match. Love doesn’t mean being consumed with the idea of a potential relationship.

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Song of Solomon 3:4

Instead, love means waiting. Love drives my prayers for the man that will walk into my life in God’s timing. The sooner I learn this lesson, hopefully the less heartbreak I’ll feel the next time someone like you comes around.

 

Don’t get me wrong, you truly are a special guy. You deserve to have girls fawning over you like they do. And one day, you’re going to make a special girl really happy. So, thank you, Guy, for what you’ve taught me through this experience, even though you may never fully know it.

For now, my prayer is to be able to uproot this flower and plant it elsewhere to serve as a reminder not to let my dreams and affections take away from God’s real love and the true love He has waiting for me.

It’s not easy. In fact, it’s one of the most emotionally taxing things that I experience all too often. But it’s okay, don’t feel sorry for me. One day, I won’t have to uproot that flower, and I can let it grow into a garden.

One day.

With love,

LJM

 

 

 

Christians, Don’t be Afraid of Passover

Christians, Don’t be Afraid of Passover

Spiritually speaking, this week is pretty busy. For my family, it’s not really because of Palm Sunday, Good Friday, or even Easter, but because of three other holidays that are either glossed over or forgotten completely. I’m speaking of Passover, Unleavened Bread, and First Fruits.

Just like with most holidays and not a lot of nearby family, we did what we do best. Invite a variety of friends, decorate a festive table, and cook like its Thanksgiving.

These feasts, along with several others in the autumn, make up what we call God’s Holy Days. If you wanna know more about them, just check out Leviticus 23. There, God commanded His people to observe special days, not simply for the fun of it, but also to set into motion prophecy of Jesus’ coming.

The Spring Feasts remember how God rescued the Hebrews from slavery in Egypt while also announcing the coming of the messiah.

Fun Fact: Jews came from the line of Judah, only one of the twelve tribes. The entire twelve tribes of Israel were called Hebrews. God gave His feasts for all His people.

While celebrating the Passover we remember that Jesus acted in the position of the Passover Lamb, covering our hearts with His blood and forever saving us from the Angel of Death. His sacrifice is a gift we don’t deserve and can never repay.

One of the main focuses in Passover is the act of getting sin out of our lives. Job 11:14 says, “If iniquity is in your hand, put it far away, and let not injustice dwell in your houses.” (ESV paraphrased). Egypt represents the sin so ingrained in our lives that it almost seems normal. This week is the perfect week to allow God to show us the sins that continue to rule over us and save us just as He did that first Passover.

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Check out a blog I wrote about The “Egypt” in Us

 

There are a lot of interesting traditions that come with celebrating Passover. If you’d like to know more about them, check them out here.

I was in high school when my family celebrated our first Passover. I’ll have to admit, I thought the Seder plate was weird and religious and I wondered if I really had to do these things in order to love God?

Six years later, I can finally say that the answer is no. We don’t eat horseradish and hide bread because we want to please God by celebrating Passover. But the traditions are there to help us remember. We are such a forgetful people, so quick to forget all that God has done for us. Not only in our lives, but in the lives leading up to ours.

Now that I’ve come to a better understanding of Passover, I have grown to love gathering a group of people together to share in the amazing power of Jesus. Him as the Passover Lamb was just the beginning. He was merely gearing up for battle against sin and death.

And in the end? He wins.

God always wins.

-LJM

1 Corinthians 15:55-57

Why I Went to See The Shack

Why I Went to See The Shack

I’m no stranger to Young’s The Shack nor its controversies.

YouTube videos detail the story’s brainwashing doctrine, theological scholars call it heresy, and articles flood my newsfeed with all the biblical reasons to avoid supporting the new film adaptation.

Even so, I went to see the film with an excitement that’s been building up since I first read the book seven months ago. I did, however try to keep in mind all of the opinionated articles I had read leading up to the film’s release.

The movie was very enjoyable even though it seemed like every actor was whispering the entire time. There were definitely lines and scenes that stayed close to the book, and I’ll admit that I bawled towards the end. The film though didn’t quite do the book justice as it had to sculpt away some of the funny nuances that made the novel special, but I feel the film kept the heart of the story.

And that heart isn’t to change the doctrine of Christianity.

I’ve read the book twice, which is something I never do whether I love a book or not. As an aspiring Christian fiction writer, I understand that fictional stories come from true places in the heart. The job is not to tell the same old cliché story. I won’t pretend to know Young’s intentions, but I will say that his story did for me what I hope to do with my future books.

In a tangible way, he reawakened the fantastic love God has for me and the world. No matter how many times I read the book or see the movie, I will always come away with these core messages:

  1. God is very fond of all of us and wants us to know Him rather than know about Him. (Romans 5:8)
  2. No matter how horribly evil someone can be, God still wants the chance to redeem. (Romans 3:23)
  3. Though some of our wounds are incredibly deep and painful, God still wants us to forgive those who caused them. (Matthew 5:44)
  4. We judge the world and God every day of our lives, but God’s ways are higher than our ways. (Matthew 7:1)

If I can add my voice to the many opinions out there, I believe that is the heart of the story.

I’m saddened by the fact that not everyone walks away with the same things and even more so that the story isn’t being given the chance to do what it was written to do. To tell people about the love of a good Father. To heal years of brokenness through the love of Jesus who understands. And to encourage others to grow more intimately with God.

Instead, it is rebuked, boycotted, and deemed blasphemous not by athiests, but by fellow believers.

We can all agree that the Bible is the place to search for truth, and a fictional story should not be treated as life giving as the Bible. That’s where the problem begins, but I highly doubt that we have to worry about Shack-supporting Christians uprising and throwing out the Word of God.

The Shack is not the film you should worry about tampering with your faith or idea about God. Even if you don’t agree with every little piece of information, the film is still clean, positive, encouraging, and moving.

In all honesty, those characteristics are far better than the negative ones that we Christians open ourselves to by seeing movies such as Sausage Party, Ouija, and Fifty Shades of Grey.

By all means don’t forsake your convictions. Stand up for what you believe in. That’s what I’m doing by writing this, and that’s all I can ask of you.

My hope is that our beliefs don’t cause us to fight our own fellow believers. Our enemy can be pretty effective with that strategy.

If you’d like to see my original review of the book, click here.

Have peace, show love, and be blessed!

-LJM

James 4:8