I’m up three pounds. Cue the expletives!
I wish I could end my post there. Why? Because what else is there to say? I got cocky, I made fewer good decisions, and now I’m embarrassed. Whose idea was it to bring you in the loop, again?
To be honest, this is kind of normal for me. I work hard for about a month, month and a half, then I run out of steam. I get discouraged about the results I’m not seeing and then I return to my normal bad habits. They’re slipping in here and there.
“Why don’t you have mac and cheese for lunch? You barely eat it anymore.”
“You can have a little snack tonight, you only had soup for dinner.”
And so on and so forth.
Remember how we find the good? The good is, at least it’s not six pounds, which would cancel any kind of progress I’ve made.
But if I don’t do better, it’ll be six pounds in no time. And we’re heading into the worst time of the year to try and lose weight. With Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas coming down the pike, I might as well be screwed.
If you have any suggestions for eating around the holidays, I’ll happily take them in the comments.
My goal now is to find my motivation to keep going and to survive the holidays with minimal casualties.
As I am typing this, I realize that the underlying issue is in my heart. I fall back on my bad habits because they’re comforting, that is, until I see the scale the next morning. Instead of going to God with my discouragement and mistakes, I give up momentarily.
I need to turn to God in order to keep me going. As my spirit and motivation wanes, I need His strength to keep me on track.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.2 Corinthians 12:9-10 (ESV)
Let me just start heading in a better direction with a simple prayer:
“Heavenly Father, forgive me for seeking comfort outside of your love and your grace. I need you to help me persevere, so that I can give you glory through my journey rather than wallow in defeat. Thank you for being with me both in trials and in victory. Amen.”
With that, I may be able to try another week.